Why am I so bad?

I ask myself this question. Often it is after I have given into temptation or fallen back into my old sinful ways. I am a sinner and there's is not doubt about it, but I will put in all the effort I possibly can to not fall back. This determination is there but I sometimes ask myself "what right do I have?" I have fallen back and I am coming back again on my knees again. How many times has it been? even I am sick of myself. I sometimes think if I could have the ability to sin taken away from me or if the desires of my flesh were taken away from me it would be so much better. I wouldn't have to struggle against my flesh daily and go about God's work peacefully; but then again, since God did do that to us there must be a reason; one that helps us actually. I just don't know what it is at the moment.

I cry because I know I am selfish. I cry because I know that I fall back into sin so often I deserve death. I desperately want to follow but I still find it hard. It shows that I still have a long way to grow, and I keep pursuing that growth despite knowing that I will never reach it for as long as I live.

I pray that God can break my heart for the things His heart breaks for; and that my thoughts are guided by Him.

"Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak"

Matthew 26 : 41

Watch your Tongue; We're selfish humans.

Sometimes I wonder why we (humans) are so selfish.

Our desires and wants sometimes just seem to cloud everything and we can only think about ourselves and speak only in favour of what benefits us the most; this is especially the case when our emotions are roused.

It's kind of sad because those are the moments where we should watch our tongues the most because ...

Our tongues have the power to invoke blessings and curses on others.

Always ask God to guide what comes out of your mouth. It's simply important.

(Psalm 141 : 3 - 5)